My Yellow Love
She told me I was healing and slow because my heart was broken
She said my love fell short
.
I gave him my all but the intensity was not potent enough to keep him in me
Hold him tight to my ground
That way or this way
She said my life was mingled
Saddened
Down and depressed
My forehead had marks of abuse
My hands were dark and bruised
My heart was heavy, clogged and beaten
My soul trampled and grey
I explained it’s all ok
.
These are the side effects of unconditional devotion
These were perks of having a name to call
Sidekicks of a game where I was the loser
These were markings of my standings
She said it’s depleting
.
My insides were cracking
Falling
Astray
My love was not intense or even potent
My shards were not sharp enough to betray
She said I was hollowed and barren
Withered and grey, starting to Miss YOU……………………………………
Missing you has become a second beat
like the silent waves crashing gently at my feet
the subtle tones of the golden sand reflecting against my face
.
Missing you has become the beautiful essence that makes me light in the middle of this mundane life
.
Missing you has adapted merrily into my soul’s rhythm
like the warm summer nights
like the Milky Way immersed into the southern sky
silent
gentle
beaming
.
Missing you has become the song played on repeat
Shuffling along with my drifted thoughts
Touching the corners of my edged out comforts
and yet the smile that follows when I hear you smile at me
knowing me lingering for you
submerged into your thoughts
.
Missing you
Missing me 🌙
